Searching For Wisdom

I am going in for brain scans today. I want it, I need it, but I also fear it — the degree to which has only just hit me. Do you have wisdom as I dive deeper into this next chapter of recovery? Please? Anything? I'm on edge, in tears and running on zero sleep from nerves. What will an updated image reveal about the current state of my brain, lasting injuries and persistent trauma? Physical surgeries and treatments are far from over, though the neurological complexities require immediate attention. And truthfully, I am beside myself… 🙏🏾🤞🏽